July 8, 2020
Holy cow Batman, I feel like I have been chewed up and spit out. Read below for my life changing events.
I started am few posts over the last couple of months that I never completed and I decided to add them althought they are basically unfinished.
Friday May 8,2020
The dental office I work for shut down because of recommendations of the CDC because of the pandemic. Since I had time on my hands I decided to load up the van and hit the road. I planned to be gone for a week, but once I heard that the govoner had shut down dental offices for non emergency work and that I didn’t have to be back until May, my week soon turned into 4 weeks!
The longer I was on the road the worse things got for the USA and stay at home orders were issued. The country was shutting down and travel was becoming harder. I stayed mainly in Geogria since the state parks were still open. Although some of the popular trails and waterfalls were closed because of the crouds that they generate. There was still much to see and do and that is just what I did. I day hiked and visited waterfalls. I loved it.
My contact with people was minimal. I only went into the grocery store twice and a laundry mat once. The state parks in Georgia had you pay in full when you registered and then you just picked up any paperwork they had for you at the registration center or you just drove directly to the site and all your paperwork was there. It was simple and easy. I did use the restrooms in the parks some, but just to shower and I don’t think anyone else was ever in there with me. I also showered in the van, but when I needed to wash my hair I perfered to do it in a larger shower.
Tuesday June 16, 2020
I have returned to work and I feel as if I’m not broke yet, but I am about to be broken. I am tetering on the edge of a very steep slope. I am no longer happy to be working day in and day out every single week. Especially in the field that I work in. Even having appointments on my days off throughs me into a tail spin. I don’t want to have to be somewhere at a certain time. I want to be free.
The whole Covid thing has really accelerated my depression. I don’t want to go into the dental office. I am a dental hygienist and we are at the top of the list for most at risk for getting the virus. I am literally right in front of the patients face with them breathing all over me. I can’t even believe we are even allowed to be open. For those of you that don’t know we create a massive amount of aersols in there. In my opinion we are not safe and the patient is definitly not safe because those aersols can remain in the air for up to six hours. If you need to go into a dental office for treatment right now I would just recommend that you are the first patient of the day. That way there are no aerosols in the operatory before you go in.
Wednesday June 17, 2020
I had two bad dreams last night. I have been having them nightly for a couple of weeks. I think it is from stress at work and my unhappiness to be there. One was at 10:30, which I was up for an hour afterward. And one at 12:30, which I was up pretty much the rest of the morning. I laid there thinking that I am not happy working so much, but I am working so much to pay off the van before next June so I can spend 6 mos traveling out west next year. I am just going to have to adjust that plan. Life is to short not to be happy. This feeling of not being happy at work has been brewing for a while. Things have changed there and in the wake of caronavirus I feel it is worse. So I made this quick decision to go in this morning and see if I can switch to part time.
Today June 16, 2020
I go ask to go part-time. My boss seemed upset by it. He told me he really wanted someone full time and he would think about it. I was a little hurt that he didn’t even ask me why, but oh well that is just my ego wanting to feel like I was more important as an employee than I really was. Since I also had time to think about it I didn’t really want to go part-time. I had my finanical goals that I wanted to achieve and going part time would not allow me to achieve them.
Over the last couple of years we have lost a couple of employees at the office and my requirements of what I needed to do on each patient had intensified to more that I could do in the time that was allotted to their care. This was very stressfull and made for some pretty shitty days. Over 6 mos ago I went to my boss and told him this. I just didn’t have enough time to give the patients the proper care that they needed and deserved. He told me that he look into it, but nothing changed.
So I decided to spell it out to him again…I needed more time with the patients or help doing the work. Since there was no one to help me with the work he dedided to give me more time. I loved this decision. It would allow me to give great patient care and I would still be able to work full time.
Now to the really intense part…the front desk girl. She stepped out of her roll of front desk girl and told me that I was costing the office production and that 40 minutes is enough time to provied the patient with supporative periodontal therapy, gingival irriagation and a fluoride treatment as well as do the part of her job that I have been doing. HA! What the hell would she even know about what I do in the back. She has never done it, nor is she licensed to do it. So our arguement escalated. I got physical and not in a friendly way, which resulted in me getting fired! Yup, fired. I had reached my boiling point and boiled over.