Thursday April 21, 2016
I was sitting on the back porch this weekend staring out into nothingness thinking that I have really become bored with my life. I have been doing the same thing day after day. Life just isn’t as fun and exciting anymore. I have gotten so caught up in the working and saving for retirement and pay off the mortgage. I no longer look forward to the next day. What am I looking for? I’m looking for an adventure. And I think I have found it. Thru hiking the Appalachian trail.
Yup! I have decided to hike the Appalachian trail. Thru hike the whole 2185 miles. Yes, walk from GA to MA through the mountains. I know…Crazy, but hey it’s what I want to do. All I can think about lately is hiking the AT. It is not something I have dreamed about doing for years. I just came up with the idea last year when I started backpacking, I just get these grand ideas sometimes.
Now I have no idea how I am going to make it a whole year in my current boring lifestyle while waiting for my AT adventure. I am ready to hit the trail now! Hiking the AT has been all I can think about. It is even blocking out some of the other trips I have planned and am looking forward to but I just cant stop thinking about this hike. It is such a huge undertaking and I’m not even sure I have what it takes to do it. Yes I’m scared! Can I make it all the way? I don’t know, but I thought about starting now rather than waiting until next year that’s how consumed I am with this. Instead I’ve decided to leave one of my jobs earlier than planned and live a little more…enjoy my time and start preparing for this hike. My focus has shifted more to being happy in the moment and less on the future.
I have a quote that I cut out years ago and pasted to my bathroom mirror…
“You should set goal beyond your reach so you always have something to live for.”~Ted Turner
One of my first big goals was to run a marathon, then I conquered an Ironman. I wonder since a marathon is one third of an Ironman and the AT is one third of a Triple Crown does that mean I may one day be a Triple Crowner? Whoa! I’m getting way ahead of myself.
Little did I know when I pasted that quote on my mirror that I would one day set a goal that I truly felt was beyond my reach. Way beyond my reach! This hike scares the shit out of me. I don’t know if I have what it takes to do this. It’s the mental and physical strength I will need that has me doubting myself.
I’m ready for the freedom of being on the trail with my only responsibility being putting one foot in front of the other. Just walk to Maine. I wonder if I will make any friends on the trail. I’m really not a social person. I view myself as more of a loner. And truthfully friends are just so much work. I tend to do and say things I really don’t want to do because of them. I feel like I should do this or say this when I just want to be honest. Which isn’t always the nicest thing to do or say. I guess I’ve never really had any great friends. Friends that I was truly honest with and always on the same page with. I’ve read a lot of trail journals and some hikers are so attached to hiking with others. I wonder If I will become that lonely and want to keep pace or slow down to be able to have company. I’ll only know once I am in that situation. I do know that at my age I will be in the minority. Most of the hikers are college age or retired. How will I mix with those two age groups? It seems kind of funny asking that question when I don’t seem to blend well even with people my own age. Maybe they are just what I need, the wisdom of age and the fun and carefree attitude of youth.